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My name is Torie/Victoria. I love theatre and Harry Potter. I was diagnosed with anorexia a few years ago, went through a forced recovery, developed bulimic tendencies, started binging, gained a lot of weight, and became extremely depressed. Now, I'm trying to lose weight in a way that allows me to remain positive. I want to accept myself, and I want you to accept yourself. If you want to lose weight, do it for you, not for anyone else. And do it healthfully and with self-respect. I want us all to be confident with ourselves and comfortable in our bodies. So smile, and show the world how awesome you are.

Progress blog (for healthy weight loss): butterflyprogress.tumblr.com. Ask me for the password.

If you ever need to talk--about anything--just drop me a message in my Ask. I'm always here.

Twitter: http://twitter.com/acciosanity
Personal blog: http://stayuntiltheveryend.tumblr.com
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Anonymous said:
Do you ever feel like you want to relapse? Because I feel like that sometimes and I feel really guilty.

Thank you for asking this. I think this is a really important concept that is very difficult to understand and explain, but I have felt that way, too. Recovery is really, really difficult. People encourage you to recover, saying that you’ll be happier and all of that, but that takes a long time. It takes a while for you to get to the point where you are actually happier with yourself and in general. In the meantime, your mind is still very sick, and you still feel the depression and self-hatred, only now you’ve gained weight. So you rationalize with yourself that you’d rather feel this way and be skinny than feel this way and be what you consider fat. But you need to not give up and keep going with your recovery, because eventually it gets so much easier. When your body is healthy, your mind will slowly follow (with help of a therapist and antidepressants). You’ll still have moments when you slip into your old ways, but you’ll be much more capable of pulling yourself out. So please don’t give up. I promise you, it’s worth it.


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› "You'll stay with me?" "Until the very end.": Anorexia is a fucking disease.

stayuntiltheveryend:

There’s a post going around of Kat Dennings with a quote that says, “I tried to be anorexic for four hours, and then I was like, I need some bagels.”

I like Kat Dennings and I’m sure she didn’t mean anything by saying this, but this sort of thing really bothers me.

Everyone pay attention:

YOU CANNOT BE ANOREXIC FOR FOUR HOURS. YOU CANNOT BE ANOREXIC FOR A FEW WEEKS. YOU CANNOT DECIDE TO “GO ANOREXIC” FOR A COUPLE DAYS.

It absolutely disgusts me when I hear people say things like, “Oh yeah, I was anorexic for two weeks once.” NO. YOU. WERE. NOT.

You went on an extreme diet. That is not anorexia, and saying it is is offensive to anyone who has actually had the disease. Don’t diminish it like that. Don’t play it off as something shallow people do to look good. Don’t ever talk about it like it’s anything other than a horrible disease that takes over your life and frequently results in death or irreparable bodily damage.

Bottom line: know the difference between a diet and a mental disorder.


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